Tuesday, 14 October 2014

Autumnal Feelings

Autumn is a lovely time of year - leaves change colour, giving a spectacular display of reds, oranges and yellows.



It's the season of harvest, when we give thanks for the produce that has grown throughout the spring and summer.



Even the darker, colder nights can be nice if you are in front of a roaring fire.


Yes, there's much to like about autumn.

And yet.....

It is often my hardest time of year.  The time when my depression is at its worst.
I'm not sure why this is.  I was first diagnosed at this time of year, and it was at the end of October a few years ago when I ended up being signed off work for a spell.  
I sometimes think that is part of the reason - because I was unwell at that time of year, I assume I will be again, a sort of self-fulfilling prophecy.

I try to focus on the positive things - the things about autumn that I've listed above, looking forward to the season of Advent and Christmas.

So anyway, it's time for me to batten down the hatches, and get through the next couple of months.


3 comments:

  1. I keep thinking back to Bob's illustration on Sunday about tightrope walkers- they do not look down at their feet, or sideways at their arms- but focus on the goal ahead of them. February is my most difficult month - I have to look ahead to the promises of Easter. You are right to anticipate Advent and Christmas to get through the dark October days. And look to friends who care about you too xx

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  2. Autumn is lovely but I think there's definitely something about knowing it's only going to get darker and colder and darker and colder that definitely sets the gloom in, let alone depression. Eeks, muchos sympathy, will keep you in prayer.

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  3. Empathy Gary, these dark days and long nights have a negative effect on my depression too but....more time for my soft and twinkling lamps and my electric heating pad for pain so... xxx

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